8-10 and 2

8-10 inches is what I have lost by my measurements.  Two pounds is what I've lost with the scale.  I keep reminding myself that if I continue to do what I'm supposed to do, the scale will also show a difference.  I hope so.  I've been so hungry for "real" food, and I think that has been one of my issues.  Now that I'm counting my calories and trying to keep my diet full of protein, I know I will see a change.  It's just a little challenging when I'm working so hard and not seeing the results where I want to see them on the scale, even if my clothes are fitting better.  

Lots of the other contestants are losing big numbers on the scale already.  I want to be losing big too.  I'm working really hard.  I know I am doing what I need to do.  I know I'll soon be seeing the results.  I will just call it what it is, jealousy.  I'm jealous, but thrilled, by how much others are losing.  I'm a very competitive person, so I hate feeling like I'm behind.  I'm going to be like the little red car in the Berenstein Bear's "The Great Race".  My little engine is going to keep going pit-pit-pit-pit-pit until the end.  I want to get healthy.  It's going to happen!

Time and patience is what I have to give it right now.  I just want to be below 200 pounds when my kids turn 4 May 14th.  Last year I tried my hardest not to be in any of the pictures.  In fact, the ones I'm in, I deleted.  I hate seeing myself so heavy.  I don't want Raj or the kids to see me like this for much longer.  Thirteen pounds.  I can do that in one day less than two months.  Cheer me on!  This is my first real goal for the challenge!