It's hard to explain my life to people who don't know me. I'm a wife. I'm a mom to triplets who will be four in less than a month. I'm am certified nurse midwife. I'm a person who enjoys going non stop most of the time. Losing weight and dieting is hard for me to do with my crazy life.
Today, I was trying to explain to Steve why all protein and no carbs doesn't work for me. However, I hate excuses, so I choose to freely say I choose not to do it right now. I'm on the go almost all of the time. I take my kids to the zoo, the aquarium, the park, the pool or anywhere else we can find to go; daily. Yes, I said daily. I've learned the kids behave so much better when we are out, and we have a blast! However, that means I either buy us lunch out or I pack a lunch. I try pretty hard to pack lunches since it's cheaper and healthier, but I don't always take the time to make them.
For my lunches, I either have a protein bar or some string cheese yogurt and fruit. Honestly, that's just the leftovers from what I pack for the kids to eat. As long as I'm honest about my BLT's (bites, licks and tastes), I am fine. It's just when I choose to ignore the twenty pieces of candy I ate that I get into trouble. I don't care how fast the weight comes off. That is not the major goal to me. I just want the weight to come off as I relearn correct eating. So, that's food with the kids.
Then, there's work. One interesting thing about babies is they often come in the middle of the night and on weekends. Shocker, right?!?! Because my first priority is to my family, I work almost all nights and weekends. What this amounts to is working all day at home taking care of the kids, then working all night at the hospital. Last time I checked, there are no Smoothie Kings or Chick-fil-a's open in the middle of the night. However, McDonald's is open 24 hours at the hospital, and I do love a good cheeseburger. Also, there are always Krispy Kreme donuts in the doctor's lounge for us to eat. I swear they call me name each time I walk past them. When I'm exhausted at 0330 after catching two babies and assisting on a c-section, that food looks really good. I try to make myself have a protein bar or some pretzels. In fact, I've been pretty successful if we are just talking about calories. Protein as a "grab and go snack" makes my stomach churn at odd hours of the night. I feel so proud of myself every time I leave the hospital not having eaten a donut. For me, that is true success!
Okay, I've rambled enough for tonight. I do have to explain my husband's amazing cooking in another post. It deserves a lot of attention!
I guess all I have written tonight is to say losing weight and being healthy has to fit my life. I'm working at figuring out what to do and what not to do to reach my goals. Losing weight is definitely not a one size fits all journey. I just want to find my size. Good night.
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